Of more answers and less questions

finally i seem to be reaching a stage where i have more answers and the no of questions r constant........

U ll say its a guud thing, right?? SO , i m a lil relieved now, amnt I?? Well i wish that cud be true....but what if the answers r bitter, that they r just rubbbing salt in an already raw wound, that everything's that happening around me now is just a minor effort to hide it, to keep myself happy, to put my life into sum kind of gear, to hide that guilt, that remorse, that feeling of self-contempt and self-loathing...that neve decreasing love n respect for her.......

Neways, i called up anshu didi yesterday n talked with her for like 15 mins, with alok too....they r happy, bcoz they r together, they r happy bcoz together they have nowhere else to g or nobody else to blame, bcoz together they r one person, one soul, bcoz together they dont have to worry about individual ambitions, succes, failure, society, expectations, .......;nothing at all.......together they r life partners, n no, thay do not walk for each other, they walk with each other....

Last couple of days has seen many futchas buzzing me n asking for their opinions about exchange prog thing....I am amazed by how frank i ve been with them..how frank about myself, n all the time i tell them i dont wanna let them be like bhavan or punita, but from inside i know i dont neone to be like me....

Love is such a sacred thing, and only those deprived of it realise it....the sacredness of luv, teh divinity iof frndship, the tender love of a sister, the care n never dying affection of parents, i feel like i ve realised all of it just now.....

DO i sound like a homesick person?? Maybe i am?, Today i didnt do great things, n feel like i ve wasted my day here...;its on days like these that i feel that i shudnt be here, but in the comfort of my home, laughing with frnds, sharing things with sumbody close or sleeping, just sleeping...

reminds me, i gotta sleep