an essay of self determination

I was just wondering as to how one's life can change in a few moments.....in a moment, u r very happy, unaware of the person next to you...but in the next one, that person might be your life partner for all you know

I was just thinking of Saumya, the gal in the AFD batch i studied french with..just remembering he dedication to clear IAS, and how she got Tripura cadre , where she would have to serve for 20 years. Did she ever imagine her life that way? I am sure she never chalked out her life in that manner...

I was just thinking what would I do if put in the same position. I dont know much about administration or how things function in tripura. But i would go there, and make my life. Choices are always made by man himself, and it is man himself who stands up to them......I think my desire to serve this country more than serve myself would help me make that decision easily...

But I would cry too, i would be frustrated too, i would like to throw things out of my house, I would be emotional....but I would return, with a promise for a better future......

Papa is such a good example of that, he finds home in wherever he goes..and he is not ashamed of anything, then why am i ashamed of myself...why do I always try to eb what others want me to be....chhhod de sahil, chhod de, ......sab moh maya hain, set goals for yourself and achieve them, one by one, slowly, slowly......Life will come and go in the blinking of the eye...